50 lbs!; Self-sabotage: Why do we do it?
First things first, this isn’t a “Panic Post”! I haven’t binged, stopped exercising, or anything like that. BUT. Today I hit both a major milestone (50 lbs lost since May!!), and also ate a bunch of candy. And I got to thinking…right before I hit 200 (my first big milestone), I kind of went a little bit crazy. It’s almost like I freak out when I have a big achievement, then need to process/adjust, then pull myself on track. Today, I came home from work (and away from the Candy Dish of Doom), had a reasonable dinner, and am certain I’ll be fine tomorrow. I can only think each of these “adjustment” periods is exactly that: adjusting to another step of getting to the real me, and having to accept that new stage. I don’t want to be all psychoanalyst about it, but if I can understand why these behaviors happen, I can try and prevent them, right? 
It’s weird to think of successes as hurdles, but I think my next “freaking-out” will likely happen around 180, when I leave obesity behind and join the ranks of the overweight. My obesity has become such a part of who I am, and how I’ve protected myself. Sad, but 100% true.
Do you guys have any thoughts about this? Do you or have you ever been able to identify and correct why you might sabotage your efforts, even after a lot of success?
In happier thoughts, boot camp was awesome today! I felt so strong, and was able to really concentrate on my form, and was able to get the most out of class today. We did hill sprints at the end of class that I struggled with, but even those felt good today. Here’s hoping tomorrow is just as much fun–off to bed now, so I can get up in time for class!
Congratulations…. that is so aweosme about 50 lbs and you are right. These are all stages adn we are working our way thorugh them.
50lbs is AMAZING!!! I do the EXACT same thing!! It’s like if I have a big milestone coming up or a weight I’ve been really working towards…I eat and eat and screw myself up!! I don’t get it either…but I agree with the adjustment period thing! I guess we’ve been protecting ourslef for so long that it’s hard to let go. I know that’s what it is for me…I just don’t always see it before the cake sees me!! lol AWESOME job though Jessica!! I’m so proud of you!!!
Well done on the 50lbs off!! I can’t wait to get there!!
love the loss - admire such loss. Sabatoage - yep - beam me up - i do it to - why - who knows. All i can say - i dont know why I do know v need to get into the habit of NOT DOING IT - dont understand why we sabotage - v do… if v can just get in to habit of not - it will happen to without searching for the whys ..! Aim at that - good eating habits - as for sabotage - dont keep any junk in the house - or substitute junk - that u know wont do as much damage? how - hot chocalate sachet drink ! currents! cottage cheese! etc - so in the weak moments - damage is limited should u fall over & binge eat! x
WHOO HOOOOO BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTIIEEE BOUNNNCE TO 50 LBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh sabotage oh sabotage…………..it always happens hon. You are not alone there. Yep, I watch myself do it all the time. It’s like it has a life of its on. So crazy!
I’m glad bootcamp is back in style for you!!!
I have to run now - talk to you soon!
wow, thats excellent - 50 lbs dead and gone!. I dont know why that is, but i have had the same thing happen to me, i hit a major milestone and bam, im thinking all you can eat fish fry, not wow, how can I eat healthier to solidify my gains? we are weird creatures!
actually, i think it is a basic response to joy and gladness. We humans have always celebrated with food - ie Thanksgiving…Independence day grilling, Memorial day grilling, Christmas dinner etc…… we celebrate with food. I got a great job offer and the first thing I did was take the family out to dinner to break the news etc…. its just how we are